upon reading vann-ann's blog entry on the 5th of November, i realised that i might have spelt something severely wrong.

"The Halloween party on Monday at Graham's was good, though Paddy was being ze bitch on his blog, calling me some vengeful mamasan or something. Plus, he was so upset that I tried to get him (and Joce) to wear seatbelts when we were cabbing home from the party. Well, EXCUSE ME for wanting to protect your life. And yes, it's Miss Vanderstraaten to you, lad. Haha, look who's being ze bitch now. :) Anyway!"

shit! die die die! then the whole pronounciation changes as well! but it's STILL cool. i am rather shaken by this ordeal now. well actually the meeting with Brother Paul on the 25th is really making me piss in my pants. i really hoped i can get a second chance. that's right, a SECOND CHANCE. it sounds nicer and makes me feel less stupid. then, there's the issue of which combination of subjects to choose again. the new syllabus scrambles things up a bit but when i bumped into louie and phong last night at the prata house [they too are seeking a SECOND CHANCE], they were going to take biology, chemistry and maths again. when i asked why, louie said she wanted to change to arts as well, but it's a totally different style and approach to learning. she said she'd rather stick to something familiar as at least we know the approach to bio, chem and maths. i agree with her but i HATE CHEMISTRY. seriously, fuck chemistry. it is the bane of my existence. on the other hand, it's all a matter of how hard you want to work, regardless of which stream you're in. though i'd rather switch to arts, i'm afraid that taking subjects i've never done before would make it harder for me. but if i retook bio, chem and maths, at least i would be on familiar ground. louie also said that the changes wouldn't be much. i don't know if that's true but her perspective just threw me into a whirlwind. WHAT SHOULD I DO?

she said, "don't go so fast, the arrows on the road are getting blurred."
he said, "baby, where we're going, they don't have any roads."
"what if we get lost then?"
"i'm already lost... in you."
[damn cheesy right? yuck. can't believe i wrote that. realised how cliche it was. but STILL. maybe it'll be part of the song =)]