are some people really just born like that? why have you changed so much. or maybe you were like that all along, just that i failed to notice it. maybe as a friend i refused to acknowledge that side of you. it's just not the same and i can understand why there is so much fear. can you not see that sometimes, your sacrifices just isn't enough or isn't all that great as you thought they would be. maybe if you had a little more sensitivity and a little more respect for us, paid more attention. then maybe you'd realise that you cause a lot of fear. that you've become a taboo, a sensitive topic that everyone treads lightly on because they are afraid. we all care for you and we find ourselves hurt that you are unwilling to be open to others' opinions. a little flexibility - a SINCERE willingness to be open - would make it much easier for all and would erase any fear that anyone has. the fact that this fear is present is evidence that we all care for you. we do not want to hurt you or offend you but maybe you have to notice that we've been doing all we can. things have been sacrificed and although not everyone is happy, it seems that you've been the most unhappy one, the one who is hardest to satisfy. that is where the fear comes from, the fear of displeasing you. i can only do so much, but if it never seems enough, then it comes to a point where it becomes exasperating. maybe you're used to doing that, to make others bend to what you think is right. but you can only use the same trick so many times as some would say it. but don't you think that it's a bit manipulative and insensitive to others to keep doing that just to get your own way. "nobody likes a child, who complains and i won't be that child anymore." sing that for me would you please? and maybe you should be open to criticism as well. getting all emo when we're all trying to help you only defeats the purpose. stop erecting those walls. stop covering yourself in spikes. can you not see that you're piercing everyone? again, this is not an attack. it is the result of being pierced over and over and over. [wah so emo] the point is, you're hurting everyone. so please stop it. please. i still can remember good times we had last year, among others. i want more of those. i want to stop feeling this constant strangle-hold that is your hostility and your strong, maybe narrow mind. if you feel that this is too strong a description for you, think. have i ever said things like these before? have i ever been this frank? no. but why now? what is it that made me lash out like this? i hope that you'd look inward and see, what would have caused this.

in the end, i'll be the bad one. i'll be the one who causes it all to end. cause i'm a terrible person. so why did i still do this. cause i feel that enough is enough. at least one is willing to make a change. please be more open, please be more sensitive. your shell has made you hardened to constructive comments and opinions that may have more value and truth. it has made you lash out at others in the process.

whatever. i'm a horrible person.

i'm a terrible person
cause i've made up my mind