The Brief Summary.

written on the wall
Close to my heart
But just never close enough
It's forever the story
Of courage and daring
Times of tired smiles
And all the evil trials

Vagrant as we pray
Please make us more than just hearsay
More hungry than fire
Combustible desire
Do not to the streets
Waste our special feats

Brave the impulse now child
Cool off your burning lips
It wouldn't do us any good if you
Turned from red to grey
Grind those ivory whites now
And just before you let go
Roll up your tardy sleeves
Wear it there and make it through

I'm sorry but twenty or so
Of your years have been determined for you
Designation of your mind and soul
You have no control
So let it go
LET IT GO

Not without a fight we won't
Not without a fight we won't
Not without a fight we won't
Not without

Pardon patience
It's a painful game
But if it's waiting we lack
The mirror shows us who's to blame


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Jonathan Francis Ong Ju-Tsiang slash Paddy
]][::16/11/1988
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Saturday, December 31, 2005
UM

DCFC is like a pillow for emotions.

when you feel embarrassed
i'll be your pride
if you need directions
then i'll be the guide
for all time
for all time


BEFORE ME

GO TO INFORMASITEKNOLOGI.BLOGSPOT.COM.

ALSO KNOWN AS KUNG FU GENERATION.

once again. it never fails me.

went to swee lee to view invisible guitars and the sun-bleached silhouettes of Les Pauls and Stratocastors hanging on the wall for a year. almost bought a DD-6 but didn't want to waste money on something i would not use cause i don't have a guitar or an amp to practice with.

ended up stealing some picks. Vic stole some too. cheap thrill - in both senses of the word 'cheap'.

wait for March then. when it's Spring in Japan so the weather's more humid, hence the wood used would be less dry so when it comes to Singaporean weather, it won't rot as quickly as guitars made from wood brought in during dry winter seasons.

i don't want to go back to school.

not like this.
not as a retainee.

this is the moment
that you know
that you told her
that you loved her but you don't
touch her skin
and then you know
that she is beautiful but she don't mean a thing to me
yeah she is beautiful she don't mean a thing to me


Thursday, December 29, 2005
WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY

WHY.

why did i have to sell HENRY, only for him to score TWICE? why are Crouch and Gerrard scoring like free when i don't have them? WHY do i have so many West Ham players only for them to lose to WIGAN? WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY

and LAN has McBride in his team. and all those players who scored! WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY

i can never win anything.

at least my pride and joy are marching onwards to the top. at least they make me feel like a winner in some sense.

I DON'T CARE RESTART THE LEAGUE. RESTART RESTART. CANNOT LET LAN TOP THE TABLE. NEXT SEASON START AGAIN. KNNBCCB.

jwlyh has killed Paddington for an extra +100 gold!
jwlyh is BEYOND GODLIKE (holy shit) SOMEBODY KILL HIM! (+400 gold)

Paddington: fuck la
Paddington: cb la rr
Paddington: gg already
Paddington: rr lan
Paddington: again

Paddington has left the game.

jwlyh: gg long time already
jwlyh: fuck lar
jwlyh: jonny busted
jwlyh: damn leavers
jwlyh: kao

i'd put you before me anytime
i'd put you before me all the time


Tuesday, December 27, 2005
what the fcuk man

you know what would kill ANY guy's ego?

first of all, this has got no offence to anyone whatsoever mentioned. it's just that i have to let this out of my system.

okay yes, ball-killing. what's one of the leading causes? chicks going with younger dudes. NO OFFENCE TO ANYONE. I'M NOT SAYING I HATE IT. I'M JUST SAYING THAT IT DECIMATES EGOS. JUST STATING SOMETHING. DON'T GO ON SUING OR FLAMING ME.

back to the subject at hand. YES. chicks going with younger dudes. when you see a 17 year old going with a 15 year old. it just sends a bad vibe to dudes everywhere. regardless of whether you know the girl or not. you just feel like the elders of the male species have suffered a monumental defeat. you just feel insulted, feel sick. maybe it's cause of eons of genetic programming or rather, societal brainwashing that makes us feel sick when we see it. but lookin at it in a biological sense, it's actually nothing wrong. as long as there is a fit female and male, nothing is wrong. maybe i should see everything like this in a biological sense now to make me feel less sick. then again, a fit female and male can also mean a mother and son. YUCK.

okay, random thought over.

"i wanted to believe in all the words
that i was speaking as we moved
together in the dark"


so this is christmas...

hmm.

haven't been feeling much lately. as in, no feeling at all.

but there's this focus, new direction.

enlist me in the army of rock n roll baby.

we have to fight the war. "so many musicians to kill"

my hides' been really hardened. cold cold cold. i like the cold. i just need to get through this. "kill me or release me demon, do not waste my time with talk."

OMG I'M BLOGGING LIKE DERN (the traitor) LA. RANDOM LINES AND PARAGRAPHS. SHIT SHIT SHIT.

if it's any consolation, MERRY CHRISTMAS.

"it's time to
RIDE! RIDE! RIDE!
NOW IT'S TIME TO!
RIDE! RIDE! RIDE!"


Sunday, December 18, 2005
Drinks for Fiona

okay, i'm going to play this stupid 5 fact game but i'm not going to be evil enough to force other people to play. unlike SOME people.

1. i secretly like hip hop/RnB.

2. i'm get really afraid when i think about the future.

3. i get really afraid to know that i have no direction in life. [pretty much like 2 but i don't care this is another one!]
i'mreallyafraidthati'llturnoutlikemyfather.
4. i used to like Manchester United BECAUSE of Eric Cantona, but now, there's no one else but my beloved LIVERPOOL FOOTBALL CLUB.
peopledon'tknowitbutToNFILAisreallyaboutmyself-esteem.
5. i really really like singing in the shower but after a certain incident involving my neighbours, i've learned to curb that habit.

oh well, that's it. nothing else to say. and it's 2am. bye.

so goodbye to you and your life


Thursday, December 15, 2005
FIVE FIVE SIX SIX WOOO

i've gone blog things crazy.

You Are an Emo Rocker!

Expressive and deep, lyrics are really your thing.
That doesn't mean you don't rock out...
You just rock out with meaning.
For you, rock is more about connecting than grandstanding.


so i was walking past the Arrival Hall in Terminal 1 to get to the Sky Train during my lunch break. there was this barricade extended from one of the arrival hall doors. it blocked the way to the sky train and i was already really hungry so i was like, "what the fuck?" please excuse me but i was really hungry and the stupid barricade didn't help things. lined along the barricade were people holding up banners and posters. oh, cool. some celebrity had arrived! i didn't care i still wanted my lunch. as i was looking for a way to bypass the barricade and it's horde of crazy chicks, they all started screaming. at the same time, my stomach was grumbling and i realised that i had to walk a gianormous round to make it to the sky train so it really warranted a, "WHAT THE FUCK?" voila, 5566 had arrived. LIKE OMG! 5566 THE GREATEST BAND OF ALL TIME. LEGENDS. GODS. OMNIPOTENT SAVIOURS OF THE REALM OF MUSIC. honestly, they were GAY. they all wore the same bloody shirts. blue with the gold chinese words, "ming xing". what? "name star"? huh? "I DON'T CARE I WANT MY LUNCH." i was rather pissed and some crazy-ass fans almost banged into me as they chased after their idols to try and get a couple of more pictures of them. after their 20 second parade to the bus finshed, i walked to the barricade and parted it like the red sea. all the other pissed and hungry people soon followed suit.

oh and did i mention that today i've gone blog things crazy?

Your Birth Month is November

Tolerant and inspirational, you are wise beyond your years.
You are universally sympathetic and a great humanitarian.

Your soul reflects: Compassion, friendship, and secret love

Your gemstone: Citrine

Your flower: Chrysanthemum

Your colors: Dark blue, red, and yellow


RED SIAL. no wonder i love LFC so much. it's FATED. and they're playing in the FIFA CWC today. come on Reds, crush the Costa Ricans. Take over the world. (please?)

"These polls they're so intriguing
Wonder who'll finally win
Don't you wish i were here"


Wednesday, December 14, 2005
serenade me, Major Machete

i found this on the Hingsby's Makeshift Blues site:

As soon as it dawned upon him
To himself, he spat out the words of sin
Then highly embarrassed, he put them back in

So he puts his hands over his mouth
And carefully stiched them together
One by one, two times over

Then he made a silent promise to the world
"I'll be taking this to my grave"
"Don't regret it, it's you i'll save"

Then he closed his eyes and swallowed hard
And his Valentino's trademark started to contort
With the captain screaming, "Abort! Abort!"

Over his hands he drew a wide Cheshire grin
On top of his head: a great artificial sun
And paraded around saying, "The deed is done!"

Right at the start when he last looked at their eyes
Never had a sword been so deadly focused
And never had a cup been so radiant

One last time he stares at those scintillating eyes
And once again his Valentino's trademark
Began to awake, maybe began to start

Because he wanted much more from the little he was granted
And it woes him more that he's further than before
Leaving his Valentino's trademark less rusty, more sore

What a fool he was to burn again and turn against his oath
He should've been reactive and stayed behind the wall
But he built a bridge and into the eyes he began to fall

Cut down, cut down, so severely, so predictably
He made the greatest diplomat proud
He hid it well, used a powerful shroud

It was christened as the greatest great tragedy
And it strenghthens as it is weakened
The desire more and greatly brightened

But it just can't be
Just too impossible
And it will remain as the one that'll never be

Goodbye goodbye
This tale bids a goodbye
Always too far to go more than a "Hi"


Tuesday, December 06, 2005
FREELOADER

my paranoid mom took the wireless modem away. she thinks my brother and i are using the computer too much. like what the FUCK! i get home in the evening, by the time i've settled down it's like 9pm. watch a little telly, slack a little, then it's the "on" switch on my computer at 11. i use to like 12 and she starts nagging. first of all. IT'S THE FUCKING HOLIDAYS. is it written in some clan law, signed by my ancestors thousands of years ago that i CANNOT use the computer to DotA or surf into the night? i mean, if i can't do that during the holidays then WHEN? it's so frustrating because i NEVER get to use it. my brother would be the one who parks his ass at the computer the whole day, playing retarded TFT games like PASS THE BOMB or MOO MOO TOWN, POKEMON, ANIME and many many many many other sad sad sad sad sad maps. you should see my download folder under "maps". it's disturbing. i admit pass the bomb looks quite fun, but for goodness' sake play DotA dammit! at least i won't be as mad if you're playing DotA. at least become a bit more pro so you can own people. WHO'S SO PROUD ABOUT OWNING IN HERO SIEGE? own WHO? the computer?! the DARKNESS WAVE THAT APPROACHES FROM THE NORTH/SOUTH/EAST/WEST? and he'll play till night. then when i come home, it's ME who looks like the gay nerd who MUST use the computer every night. i don't even use it EVERY NIGHT. but whenever i do use it, suddenly i've been the one hogging it since the beginning of time. seriously, it's utterly exasperating. and now, i have to freeload off the internet at work to blog and check my mail and stuff.

seriously, my mom thinks people who use the computer after 12 are CRAZY, LUNATICS, RETARDS, ABSURD, WRONG, GOOD FOR NOTHING, INSANE, IRRATIONAL and any other derogatory term you can put here. if that's the case, she should put 14896210512342345 into IMH right now because it's so commonplace. i swear. AIWEUFPAIWFAJSDBGPAIWBF[ASDGU[AWERUBGFADSJGBA[WEUGFB]-[02893Y9P3W5TP[9Naxw{)gVTQ35BHHJUB
+9/VGBYQU-R9ENGV-[93804YHFVNC0[X=GYQA=43208V CNZxaqGVQ34CGY0O5I83QY092

i just broke off the escape button. SHIT. okay got it back.

so anyway, work's been pretty good. rather mundane but hey, at least it's better than having no job at all. my co-workers are such slackers. just because the head of the department is on leave for a couple of days they leave at 5.30 on the dot. so i'm here, checking my mail, managing my fantasy league, blogging, checking out friendster, listening to my mp3, wikipedia-ing, (clocking in free hours). it's so good like this.

did i mention i played FREE LAN yesterday at this newly opened LAN shop? it was after the match against NYJC (oh yeah, more about that), and some of the soccer boys decided to DotA, so we headed to this place in Serangoon and just as we stepped out of the cab, some guy comes up saying, "hey guys, are you here to play LAN? cause we just opened and gaming is free until the 7th." please, if you hear this what will you reaction be? so we DotA-ed till 9.30 cause they didn't want use to freeload for so long. it was obvious who had the most number of kills =). (ash was tyco though, digusting zeus and his wrath of god)

CJC soccer was entered into some tournament consisting of two secondary schools, Ping-Yi and Saint Andrews, and two JCs, NYJC and CJC. it was held at NYJC with it's shitty field. honestly, the field is shitty, like it was flown in from the grasslands of the Savannah. anyway, our first match was against SAS which we won 5-4, it was such an exciting game with heart-stopping moments. we went ahead first, then they equalised, then we lead 2-1. then, they came back from behind again. next they scored another two to make it 4-2. then Aaron headed from a corner to make it 4-3, providing a glimmer of hope. TERRENCE WAH equalised with a well-placed shot. and in the dying minutes, Captain Kenny won it for us 5-4. my god, was it a scary game to watch.

the next match was against Ping Yi secondary. a school from the east. the east side schools always had the reputation of being powerhouses in football. Ping Yi stayed true to that reputation. we drew with them 3-3, though we really should've won it as they could not match our physical presence. (with Gomes, who can?) our last match was against NYJC, who won SAS and lost to Ping Yi. i think it was our best match. we had a lot of missing starting players, Hafiz was late, Sheer had to settle some retention matters, Ash was rushing down from Hong Kong, Thad was missing, Manoj was injured. basically, we looked like Liverpool last season. suprisingly, we went ahead first. CORNERLIUS scored with a looping header from a corner. the lad deserved it. he hadn't been playing for a LOT of matches and when he finally came on, he scored. the odds really seemed against us cause Ben Chan was sent off after two yellow cards and we had to hold on to the lead with 10 men. but then, Hafiz came on and pulled strings in the center of midfield. Ash came strutting along and made life hell for the defenders with his stupid i'm-faster-than-a-cheetah-and-your-mom sprinting. Mr Ho became somewhat of a psychic. he predicted how Aaron was going to score and it happened word for word. he said to Aaron, "the goal is going to come for you. it's going to be a shot. you're going to take one touch then shoot." and it happened. maybe it's some form of mind game he played but whatever it was, it worked. we were leading 2-0 with ten men. our new keeper, Jeremy, who i swear is damn bloody good, had an assist after his goal kick was chased down by Ash, who controlled it with a deft header and volleyed past the keeper. 3-0 with ten men. all in all, we played as a team and i think if i can stay on in the team after next year's re-selection, i would really like to do my best. IF i can stay on. it's looking rather bleak though. anyway, Ping Yi won SAS (poor sobs, they didn't win a single game), and they're tied with us in the top position, points for points, goal difference for goal difference. i guess we win on alphabetical order. =)

hmm, ACFC is having soccer at SN now. feel like playing but it's so far. it's now 7pm and by the time i reach there they'll be done. and if i go home now i'll have nothing to do. this sucks. WHAT HOLIDAYS.

oh yeah, league camp. first of all, i think Grace and Sara did an extremely good job to plan the whole camp. i think it's the first time in history that sec 3s planned camp. like wow. i felt that camp was alright. some what better than last year's. and i finally got to spend time with the league people. maybe i should go to mass with them more often.

ELTJ YOU BETRAYER. TOTALLY BUSTED. but then again it was expected =).

sorry for the whole randomness of this entry. haven't updated in a long time and i just feel fucked.

"And i'm too afraid to hold you;
If only to let you go away"



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