hmm.

i was in CD-RAMA the other day and notice that they had really cool headphones/ear-phones. pity that i couldn't afford them. then, i headed down to far east for some reason, i can't remember. i saw these really cool fisherman-like bags, like the one i have but cooler. i really wanted to get it since my current fisherman bag is broken thanks to Ashley and Da Lun. asses. then, on Saturday, i headed to heeren to meet Malcolm and JC to choose a CD for Rachel as her present. we waltzed along the vast aisles of HMV to see the treasures they behold. boy, was i in for a treat! Franz Ferdinand's "You Could Have It So Much Better", Hot Hot Heat's "Make Up The Breakdown", the Van's Warped Tour 2005 CD, Taking Back Sunday's "Where You Want To Be" and "Tell All Your Friends", Snow Patrol's "Songs For Polar Bears", Story Of The Year's "In The Wake Of Determination", Thrice's "Vheissu", "The Artist In The Ambulance", "The Illusion Of Safety" and "Identity Crisis", Still Life Projector's "The Dance Riot", Kaiser Chief's "Employment", The Futureheads' self-titled album, Bloc Party's "Silent Alarm", The Walkmen's "Bows + Arrows", Interpol's "Antics", British Sea Power's "Open Season", Hard-Fi's "Stars Of CCTV", Muse's "Origin Of Symmetry", The Strokes' "Is This It" and so many more! wow! was i in for a treat! too bad i seldom buy CDs. in the end, we got Hot Hot Heat's "Make Up The Breakdown" and the Van's Warped Tour 2005 CD for Rachel.

went to Rachel's party on Saturday. her house is just...just. i do not have an elaborate enough vocabulary to describe it. sorry. but there was a dude there making pratas on the spot for everybody and a band playing. coolness.

okay, i don't know why but now, i'm feeling like i have no purpose living. it's not like a suicidal thing. but everyday, i wake up and do nothing. my whole day is either spent on the computer or watching the TV which is fucking stupid. i want to go out and do something but i just got scolded by my mom this morning for going out all the time and that my "friends are more important then my family". like what the fuck? what the hell am i supposed to do at home all the bloody time? she scolded me and brother for being lousy, lazy slobs and that she wants us to do a timetable for the holidays, including "study time, time for computer, time for friends, time for going out" bla bla bla. what the hell? i detest timetables. study time? what the hell am i supposed to study? sometimes i just want to leave the house since whenever i use the computer, my brother would pester me to stop cause HE wants to use it. he would sit right NEXT to me and use his presence to chase me off the computer. along with his incessant questions of, "are you done yet? can i use soon? i want to use." like FUCK, man. and what's more, that's what's happening NOW. at this INSTANT. he is seriously obsessed but why the hell do i care.

okae, i'm just don't know what i'm feeling now. i find that i have nothing fufiling to do. nothing worth focusing on. i hate this. i really hate this. fuck this. fuck it. i now have no mood to write songs with Vic later.

way away, away from here i'll be