don't really have the mood to blog. but the first day in CJC was alright i guess. kind of boring really. maybe it's cause it's the second time they're doing it, so it's less enthu. but the people there are alright. friendly-folk. well, it's actually thanks to Elsa to introduce me to my first acquaintence: McRon. funny guy, can tell that he's damn famous in the school.

it was surreal to be in a Catholic environment again. i was shell-shocked when they said prayers in the morning. like, WHOA, i never said prayers as part of assembly for millenia. really surreal. felt like i was in MSHS Pri again. speaking of MSHS Pri, saw a lot of my MSHS Pri school mates. still can remember their names. Manfred Seet [now an altar server at IHM], Darryl [the tow kay], Henry Teo [chicken], Trevin [don't know why, but the memory of him that immediately pops into my head is the one where he takes a damn long piss in the toilet. hmm.]. think there might be more but it's still the first day and i hadn't had the chance to fully immerse myself in it.

i don't know. something about CJC. maybe i've been so entrenched in cheena and heartland culture for the past few years, that i just feel uncomfortable there. what's more, i'm from MACPHERSON. like what the hell? CJC's like SJI, IJ, ACS, MSHS territory. who am I to suddenly try to fit in. i don't know. just feels awkward. ah, fuck it. maybe's cause it's the first day.

sigh.

"This silence kills me faster
Than a bolt of lightning
It seems, it seems, it seems
That i'm quickly fading

Perhaps i'm already gone
Perhaps, perhaps
I no longer sing for anyone
Mayhap, Mayhap"