fuck. oops, sorry. fuck. oh dear, there i go again! one more time! fuck! wooooo!

please excuse the angst, but Werd just became a 3-piece. Fuck assumptions, fuck no communication, fuck the stupid implicit undertones. fuck the timing. 12 March is coming but there he goes. i'm not mad at you for leaving man but i AM pissed about you not making it clear that your not being able to commit means that you would be going away and not play for us at the gig. an explosion like this would not happen if you told us earlier, as in CLEARLY stated your intentions of leaving Werd. seriously, of course there would be a fizzle, cause you'd be leaving the band we started in sec 3, but nothing more. if you had issues with roles, then i don't mind changing them if it meant keeping us together. Werd's more than just a band man, it's a fellowship. but NOW, two weeks to the gig and you tell me that you TRIED telling me that you can't play for us. come on man. it's sad for us to part ways like this for sure. personally, i think your reasons are a bit dumb, but if the reasons are important ones for you, i respect that. if it's best for you if you left, then it's alright man. we wish you all the best in whatever it is that you can fully commit yourself to. i'm only pissed now because we have to find a replacement to learn the songs and play them like it's second nature. trust me, NOT MANY will want to cram 4 songs worth of bass tabs in their heads, not to mention click with 3 guys you don't really know or never jammed with. please don't take this entry as an attack on you man. i'm just letting it out. i have no bad blood against you cause you're still my friend but i can't help but feel upset about this incident. i hope you understand.

fuck la! now, mention 'Werd' and there's this incomplete feeling i have now. not to make you feel guilty or anything, but this is how i feel. if you feel like you owe us something of whatever, don't. it's already clear that you can't commit. it's like a fucking break up. just, please, be certain of it now. when you left, the first time and came back, we thought that you'd be back for good. then this happens. just be sure next time, in whatever it is, commitment is not a switch you can turn on or off whenever you want to. i guess, the only positive thing out of this, is an intense emotional outburst which can be channeled into a song. thank you. you're the inspiration for this. i'm not spewing sarcastic acid on you, just being optimistic. it's just the sad irony of this. now i know how Ryan Key and co. felt when writing 'Empty Apartment'. it's pretty much the same.

fuck deciding for my JAE too. fuck that.

just FUCK.