for some reason, i'm blogging in the wee hours of the morning again. Liverpool just lost to Birmingham, so i'm rather pissed now. and i've got nothing much to say so maybe it'll be another angsty, expletive-filled entry.

was at my mom's office for the entire day. helped her set up her office for a CNY party thing. people came and played mahjong, ate, socialised. some brought their kids and i had to help take care of them. but after a while, i got tired and the kids started to play among themselves, so i hid myself in my favourite corner in my mom's office and slept. i woke up at like 7pm and realised that my right eye was as red as the Liverpool jersey i was wearing [damn contacts]. i helped my mom do some spring cleaning in her office after that and had the leftover food from the party for dinner. oh god, i just realised that my day sucked big time. looking back, it was horrible. nothing done, nothing achieved, no fun. sadness.

shit, i have tests coming up next week which i will undoubtedly fail. chemistry and math, woo hoo. i have been producing carbon copies of my chemistry assignments since tutorial 1 and never really took the time to understand what i was copying. math is a joke. the lectures are a joke, the tutorials are a joke. so will be my results of the test. i think i'll study for chemistry, only because i want to prevent myself from being blacklisted as a bad chemistry student, since
(s)RJC's chemistry is one of the best in Singapore. screw math. screw school right now. i've been hearing so many people talking about going to a polytechnic because they can't stand the JC life. i think i might consider that too, but i don't know what to study in a poly. i don't think i have the self-discipline to drag myself to lectures and tutorials in poly too. sigh, choices, i hate them, but you have to make them.

i loathe what i'm feeling now. it's the i'm-in-a-whirlwind-someone-kill-me feeling again. i always get it whenever school's starting to get pointless and dull and when i've felt that a day's been wasted. like i've got no direction in life. but then again, i never had a compass. it's like the someone faded the colours in life. it's all dull. once again, f*ck it [woo hoo, return of the asterik].

i...i..i... have nothing else to say. okay, i'm actualli too disillusioned with sleep deprivation to continue without unleashing Herbert into the fray.

"...standing here with no one else but my shadow dancing around me.."