i think i'm crazy. i just had 3 consecutive cans of coke. one before dinner, one during and one after. so now, i feel sick. no surprise there really. well what was i supposed to do? the cartons of coke were screaming to me, "drink meee! drink meee!" they have to be finished anyway right?

anyways, before i start hurling violently, the good/bad news is that the results are on Monday, the 28th. the good thing about that is, there would be a 5 day break to decide your future; that means no school for the week. woo hoo! the bad thing is, the anxiety, worrying and altogether shittiness of waiting for the results is prolonged.

okay, i just realised that i have finished an entire pack of Kit Kats at this point of the entry. oh god help me. i'm on a sweet binge.

okay, stomach's working up now. i don't think coke and Kit Kat are good friends.

alright, i got to speed this up.

school was another mundane affair today. boring lectures, boring tutorials. at least we played mini-softball for PE. i think (s)RJC grows on you. i think at some point in time i'll be thinking of memories i have in SR.

i'm freaking myself out lately. today was a fine example. when i got home from school, exhausted from PE, i went straight to the kitchen toilet to wash my uniform and prepared the mopping pail. i put on my lostprophets CD in the mini-hi-fi in the living room and turned it up to volume level 12. then i started sweeping the entire house, wiped the floor a second time with the MagicClean(TM) wiping sheet and mopped it. all the while head-banging to the legend that is the lostprophets. crooning with Ian Watkins was fun. although my face was red from zhao sia-ing all the time, i thoroughly enjoyed it. Ian Watkins is one of my all-time favourite vocalists, along with Jason Wade from Lifehouse and others.

i'm wondering how is it that artistes from the states get global recognition so easily and quickly, whereas acts from Asia barely get a second glance? is there a stigma attached to Asia? i know there's a stigma for football cause the football in Asia really sucks. but music? i don't see the artistes from the US being any different than some acts from Asia. the US has shaped the music world so much that you have to sound American to be recognised and get noticed. it's weird how every artiste that sings in English has to sing with an American accent. is it wrong to sound local? Electrico's David Tan doesn't sound local when he sings, the Too Phat dudes sound like real African-Americans. does music lose it's appeal just because you don't sound like you're from America? even Irish boyband, Westlife and British boybands like Busted sing like Americans. only a few bands from Britain refrain from singing like Americans and that gives them a unique sound. Coldplay, Keane and Oasis are some examples. i must confess, Werd's vocalists sound like Americans too. it's like a prerequisite to sing in that manner if you are to sing at all. i guess it portrays excellent diction from the singer. remember Sly? the way he murdered the songs with horrible diction [keees from a rose], made him lose out to Taufik. i guess singing like an American means you have good diction. oh well, fair enough. good diction seems to be a fair enough reason. but that still doesn't solve the problem of Asian artistes being confined to their continent and not making it big overseas. perhaps it's because American artistes are welcomed with open arms as big as Asia, into Asia. face it, we worship the West. they are everything we want to be. looks, money, power. they seem to have it all. their influence on the East is fast growing. i think there's also the perception of Asia as being primitive, under-developed and uneducated. let's face it, it would be weird to see a bunch of white people moshing to an Asian band but it won't look weird if Asians are seen moshing to an American band. i think, in order for perceptions to change, Asian bands would have to work hard to expand their horizons. it's great that Electrico went on tour in Australia. what Asian acts need are more publicity and exposure to the West. it's a shame really cause there are really a lot of talented bands out there. i'm also a fan of Rivermaya from the Phillipines. i like their sound. not to mention a little aspiring 4-piece from Singapore trying to live a dream? [Werd la.] i think Asian acts are on the rise. they're riding waves to the West. hopefully the West would take notice and maybe the world would be less biased about where music is from and enjoy it because it's good and not because it's from a certain country.

"i can make it on my own.."