my body clock is a mess. clearly i need to readjust to waking up early. i'm still in the "sleep at 2am, wake up at 2pm" mode. so, it's really taking it's toll on me. i'm tired all the damn time. i would crash at 2am and wake up at 6am.

the past two days have been rather uneventful. other JCs still have their orientation going on while we have to sit in lecture theatres the whole day listening to the monotonous mumbling of the tutors. i remembered sleeping in every lecture on thursday. today's lectures intimidated me, especially the chemistry and GP lectures.

the first thing the chemistry lecturer did when she came into the LT was flash transperancies. she gave us a 5 minute introduction to A-Level chemistry then started teaching us one component. my goodness did it scare the sh*t out of me. it was something about measuring the pH of a substance. she rushed through it as if she was revising an old topic with the A-Levels hours away. i was like three steps behind her and i was amazed how fast everyone else around me was able to catch what she was saying. i was even more shocked when LOGARITHMS were applied. everyone's jaw dropped when they saw -log10[H+] suddenly appear. it was to determine the pH. she said that it was the most basic formula in JC chemistry. when she said that, it made me sick. then she drew a graph that looked like a cubic graph. i wanted to die then. i'm eyeing the course with biology, chemistry and mathematics. but now, after seeing what chemistry is like, i'm having second thoughts. but looking at the other courses, there's not much of a choice for me. i was thinking of taking economics, but if there was no 3 subject combination with biology and economics. sad.

the GP lecture was just as bad. if there's one thing i hate, it's arrogant teachers who think students should make time for them because they have degrees or other such qualifications. the lecturer was being a bitch. she didn't have her laptop working for her power point presentation, so she made us copy down meaningless sh*t. she talked with this air of sarcasm, putting us down with sharp remarks. like when there was this word "inevitable" she was like, "you DO know what it means right? well i suppose it's alright if people like you don't know it." not many people caught what she said cause she was busy yakking her big ass mouth away while everyone was copying down the crap she projected on the screen when her laptop started working. i immediately felt insulted. like what the hell, you're a damn teacher for gooodness' sake. how can you have such a perspective of a student? the whole time she was talking sh*t and reminded me of a certain teacher i had once and it brought me a feeling of despair. are ALL english teachers like that? if they are, i might as well start speaking chinese. i also learned that GP is more of journalist training than english class. in a way, it's quite cool but it's drier. i only know that i won't be looking forward to studying it if my teacher was that lecturer [the subject head too, sheesh].

i don't know what CCA to take yet. the influx of the variety of CCAs has overwhelmed me [since MacPherson is devoid of any happening CCA]. i was thinking of joining the guitar ensemble, but i seriously don't think i'm good enough. then i was also thinking of joining soccer but for sure i know i'm not good enough. but i'll try out for it anyway. then again, there's ELDS which is pretty much a debating club. i may just join it cause it looks interesting and it helps a LOT for your GP. so, we'll see.

boring, boring, boring. i need to rewind my body clock.